My random blog thing

great, kieran is going psycho. i sincerely think he is have a breakdown. slamming stuff around, screaming, crying. He never cries. Apparently he just feel like everything is just stacking up on him, each little thing would be ok if it were on its own, but he just feels buried by it, i can empathies. he's a mess,It's just not good. No doubt he's feeling shit but it just feels like i cannot escape my own shitness. maybe it would help if we shared our shitty feelings. but maybe not. but basically two (no doubt failed) exams at school and a screaming brother at home dont help my own self esteem; and make me feel like i can't find anywhere to escape to. so another set of bleeding cuts on my wrist. and i feel seriously selfish in doing those cuts, which really doesnt make me feel great either. hurray for self pity.

here we go. ive got about half an hour before i leave the house and have to go to that hellhole called a school. I spose everyone feels this way before school (or work as well) on a monday. you just want to hide under your duvet and die lol. well hooray for coco pops at least. well ill post again later. semper fidelis. im not quite sure what it means but it sounds cool.