great, kieran is going psycho. i sincerely think he is have a breakdown. slamming stuff around, screaming, crying. He never cries. Apparently he just feel like everything is just stacking up on him, each little thing would be ok if it were on its own, but he just feels buried by it, i can empathies. he's a mess,It's just not good. No doubt he's feeling shit but it just feels like i cannot escape my own shitness. maybe it would help if we shared our shitty feelings. but maybe not. but basically two (no doubt failed) exams at school and a screaming brother at home dont help my own self esteem; and make me feel like i can't find anywhere to escape to. so another set of bleeding cuts on my wrist. and i feel seriously selfish in doing those cuts, which really doesnt make me feel great either. hurray for self pity. 
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Callumhill
- 2008-04-29 @ 06:50:48
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Random_emo_girls
- 2008-06-08 @ 20:55:45
My brother suffered from depression last year and it effected the whole of my family. It was awful to watch, and I remember having to witness him actually cutting himself once when he thought nobody was around. It was a bad time but I had to pull myself together and grin and bear it so that my Mum would be ok.
I haven't been following your blog, I randomly came across it so I don't know much about your situation but please don't feel like you need to cut yourself to relieve your stress. I know that it feels like a good thing to do but you'll regret it later. My brother is mostly over his depression now but he still has the hideous white scars on his arms. If I was you I'd talk to somebody about how you're feeling. Things like this don't have to last forever. If you're brother is going through a hard time then try not to take in all of his stress. If it all gets too much then go for a walk or meet up with a friend.
Or talk to me if you need somebody to chat to (:
Maya x-
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Callumhill
- 2008-06-15 @ 12:57:41
Thanks for that darlin. I might take you up on that offer and whine to you a bit some time.
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He's going to the doctors today to try to sort stuff out. He's spark out on the couch and has half a pack of sleeping pills next to him.