My random blog thing

In response to:The school raffle

2008-06-18T18:19:10+02:00

£20? Wow you could have bought all of the tickets with that much lol. Then you would have definitely won (: Good luck!

In response to:Brothers emotional breakdown

2008-06-15T12:57:41+02:00

Thanks for that darlin. I might take you up on that offer and whine to you a bit some time.

In response to:Brothers emotional breakdown

2008-06-08T20:55:45+02:00

My brother suffered from depression last year and it effected the whole of my family. It was awful to watch, and I remember having to witness him actually cutting himself once when he thought nobody was around. It was a bad time but I had to pull myself together and grin and bear it so that my Mum would be ok.
I haven't been following your blog, I randomly came across it so I don't know much about your situation but please don't feel like you need to cut yourself to relieve your stress. I know that it feels like a good thing to do but you'll regret it later. My brother is mostly over his depression now but he still has the hideous white scars on his arms. If I was you I'd talk to somebody about how you're feeling. Things like this don't have to last forever. If you're brother is going through a hard time then try not to take in all of his stress. If it all gets too much then go for a walk or meet up with a friend.
Or talk to me if you need somebody to chat to (:

Maya x

In response to:Cold turkey

2008-06-06T09:07:03+02:00

YOU've been tagged (look at my tagged by old Nick post). Answer the questions then tag 5 other people xxxx

So so proud of you!!! Hope everything is going well with the cold turkey. It is sooooo hard. I tried it and was doing well till Feb but I haven't cut myself since woo hoo!!!! Oh I could just scoop you up and give you and big hug

Big Kiss!!! xxxxx

In response to:Cold turkey

2008-04-30T16:21:21+02:00

good for you and good luck!
Throwing your razors away is a must have been very hard for you.
i hope you keep it up
:)

In response to:Brothers emotional breakdown

2008-04-29T06:50:48+02:00

He's going to the doctors today to try to sort stuff out. He's spark out on the couch and has half a pack of sleeping pills next to him. :(

In response to:Monday Morning

2008-04-28T16:33:36+02:00

Thats terrible. i wont pity you because i can tell thats not what you would want. It's just nice to see that a nice person has come out of it. :)

In response to:Monday Morning

2008-04-28T08:49:30+02:00

Chin up hun. I got bullied at school too. In fact as a child I pretty much got bullied everywhere including home. Didn't help that when I got to Year 11 I was acused of child abuse by my so called best friend (she accused me of hitting her 4 year old nephew - something inconceivable by moi. As a vicitm of child abuse I'd never inflict it on another person). Ah well I'm now away from the bullies and stronger and more successful than the lot of them put together!!! xxxx

In response to:Nothing to report

2008-01-29T22:41:51+01:00

update this thing damn it /fist shake

In response to:Caitlin!

2008-01-10T22:20:47+01:00

congratulations. Uncle is such a great thing to be

In response to:Do they know its Christmas time at all? hehehe

2007-12-24T18:39:16+01:00

bah humbug!

i'm not assed about crimbo..

more assed about getting a lie in tbh.

In response to:Sorry i havent been on for ages

2007-12-23T16:18:31+01:00

welcome back. I was wondering where you were

In response to:School is hell

2007-12-21T12:35:26+01:00

What made you decide to do a blog on this particular subject I find it very interesting, hope we can keep reading your posts as I find them hugely interesting.

In response to:School is hell

2007-11-26T17:31:40+01:00

I get what your saying, but i dont think it's too much to ask to have a bit of human consideration. But hey only 2 more years of it. :(

In response to:School is hell

2007-11-26T12:22:44+01:00

School is for studying in. Ignore the jerks and do that instead. You don't need these people.

In response to:School is hell

2007-11-26T08:05:03+01:00

When I moved from primary to secondary school, in a different suburb altogether, I was the odd kid out, and was badly picked up on (not only was I from different background, I was also the best student in the class). That was horrible. It wasn’t only verbal, but also physical. I hated school. So after school I started taking Karate lessons. Not once or twice a week, but every day.

I would wake up in the morning and practiced. I would come back from school and practiced. It became the centre of my life.

There was something magical about it. I did not tell it to anyone; I did not show it or demonstrated it at school. I never even needed to use it, but within months something changed, and I was not bullied any longer.

I never became the popular guy, but I did not want this, it was not my personality. But I started to get a lot of respect. And all of a sudden being the best student was not something people used against me, but rather they would proudly say, “this is the genius of the our class” It did change my life.

In response to:Ultimatum

2007-11-22T18:04:52+01:00

Sometimes chickening out can be the best approach. Not alwasy though. And the hard thing is to figure out when it is and when it isn't. Hope it works for you. Good luck

In response to:Ultimatum

2007-11-22T17:29:55+01:00

thanks. but just to let you know i chickened out. i spose i just don't want to be left out and be on my own.

In response to:Ultimatum

2007-11-22T08:44:38+01:00

head on confrontation, is not always the best way to know what's happening or to resolve problem. This is the reason that women, often do better than men in many situations.

Don't think that what you describe is limited to school kids. It repeats all your life. Socially, at work. So learning to be smart in this situations, focusing on achieving your goals and not on expressing your frustration and "let em know what you think of them" is a great skill to learn.

Just a thought ....

In response to:My brother started being... brotherly

2007-11-21T22:45:20+01:00

lol cheers everyone. had a bit of a crap day (not put this on reply to comment as would like you 3 all to see) but i will talk about that when i have time for a full entry. I'm gratefully for all your opinions. Is good to have outsiders that you don't know, wont ever meet, but who you don't need to worry about knowing, giving their opinions and helping out.

In response to:My brother started being... brotherly

2007-11-21T11:50:11+01:00

Personally, I spoke to some close friends first. I had decided I was bi, but as it turns out I was just kidding myself because I thought it would be more acceptable to friends and family. I'm gay, and luckily the people that matter to me accept that - but I was really worried about telling my dad and my older brother.

I told my sister, and the first thing she did was tell our brother (and all her friends). So maybe not the wisest thing to do! But I know what you mean about having "lied" to your brother - makes you feel like crap.

If it was me, I'd think twice about saying anything while I was still at school, but I'd want to get it over with ASAP too. I waited until I was in sixth form.

(Also, if you click the "Reply to comment" link at the bottom of a comment, it lets the person know you've replied.)

In response to:My brother started being... brotherly

2007-11-21T09:54:17+01:00

hmm, I don't know you or your brother, but something tells me that if your brother is not normally brotherly, then he may be just being so to find out if his suspicions are correct.
So I don't think I would tell him if I were you. You don't know for sure, you are probably not yet ready to come out. At 15 do we really know our sexuality? Today there is so much normality attached to things that were previously tabu, that it must be confusing.
Seems you want to talk to someone about your sexuality and feelings though, but I would suggest a youth worker or other sort of counsellor, not your bro, he will not keep quiet.

In response to:My brother started being... brotherly

2007-11-21T08:10:35+01:00

Thanks. But I also don't want to feel im keeping stuff from my family. But either way i gotta go off to school in a few mins so bye. ;)

In response to:My brother started being... brotherly

2007-11-21T08:04:53+01:00

as some people claim, being bi, hetro, or gay are not three options, but just points on a line. Each person is somewhere on this line, some more extreme than other.

So in other words, don't stick to labels or put yourself in boxes. Forget about definitions, and concentrate on what you feel and what you want to do. The rest will sort itself out